I hate to be so negative on here. Nothing but positive posts from now on.
So here’s the cycle: trigger & disassociate, panic attack later, negative voices and/or reliving traumatic experiences , self harm and/or refusal for self care, more disassociation, more negative feelings, repression of episode the next day & convincing myself that this is all so silly and I need to just get over it
I don’t know exactly how to describe this, but 98% of the time I feel like I’m in an alternate universe. Like, I’m a different person trapped in this body. Like this isn’t reality. I always feel disconnected from everything that is going on. Nothing happens to me, it just happens to the body I’m in. I just watch.